I have a really strong connection with Courtney - I always have and from day day I met her I could definitely see potential. As a disclaimer, now that everyone is able to watch our 3rd date video it has come out that I kept in really close touch with Courtney after our dates. I even went to visit her in her home town of Arizona because I have been feeling so strongly for this girl.
I chose a Real Salt Lake soccer game for our date because major league soccer is my absolute favorite thing in the entire world and I wanted to share it with Courtney. Going into the game I had really high hopes and expectations especially since we have always had such a strong connection and I have always seen Courtney, as well as Danielle and especially Sharla, at the end of all of this dating.
So I was a little surprised that things were a little bit awkward during the game. I think it's my fault because I was so nervous. This is the last date before I have to decide who I will choose to be my girlfriend and hopefully more after that and I want to make sure the feelings are real on both sides. At the end of the date I decided not to take the awkward as a sign that things aren't right between me and Courtney and I am going to still give some serious thought about whether or not to choose her at the end of this journey. I really think we have eternal potential and I need to take the next several days to make sure I am making the right decision if I pick Courtney, try to convince Sharla to give me another chance or choose a stronger friendship with Danielle that may lead into something much deeper with more time. I really don't know what to do.